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At a private party, sometime in late 2020…

“Look, you two might be able to move your operations offshore, but I’m stuck with distribution centers here in the states. We need some kind of distraction to keep people focused on getting our profits back up and not on this damn pandemic.”

“Hey, take it easy. I’m stuck with my factories here too, and California is threatening to shut me down because of COVID. So yea, we have to do something more than our politicians can do. Any ideas?”

“Space, we could run a publicized space competition. Everybody will pay attention…


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Having Chaos and Order around was fascinating. They kept squabbling over what to do with matter and energy. While I watched, interested both in what they would come up with and in the underlying particle interactions. To my eye, the most exciting things were the fields and particles that had not existed in my previous universe. The parts of my universe that I termed magic, mana, dimension, and dream. Things that were both layered on and interwoven with the standard model of physics I was familiar with. Things that expanded the scope of physics but at the same time allowed…


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The office door closed silently as the last public relations specialist entered, closing the door behind them. Then moving to the empty chair in front of the boss’s desk and sitting down.

“I called you all in today because of a discussion I had with some of my peers at the get-together last night at Phil’s place. It looks like this thing in China may turn into something serious, so we need to start thinking about diversifying our holding. We will need a public relations push to remind the workforce of their place if it gets bad. You know the…


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I spent what felt like an epoch actively watching the universe unfold, micromanaging the creation and destruction of pre-matter fundamental particles. The cooling of the universe to an energy density that could be called temperature, where quarks could be bound by gluons forming protons and neutrons. Finally, the universe’s energy density dropped enough that protons, electrons, and neutrons spontaneously formed hydrogen. However, since the energy density was high enough that pockets of fusion formed, creating small amounts of helium along with higher energy pseudo-sun pockets within the already high energy early universe.

It took a while to notice, but I…


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Pain through closed eyelids, stabbing from eye through the back of my brain like a bar of red-hot steel. Radiating from the bar of pain through my entire brain, down my neck. I can feel the tension mounting, making the pain worse, amplifying, causing feedback. It reaches my lower back, and I twitch, the slight movement causing a flair of pain that causes flashes of light that never was behind my eyelids. The phantom light feeding back. The steel widening to a plate across all of my head. Down my neck to my shoulders, becoming a bar that reaches the…


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Watching the universe unfold to my new senses. I could sense whorls of energy that could almost coalesce into matter, nearly cold compared to the surrounding energy flux. Then there were others where the spin and density of energy were nearly blinding even to my senses. Where the energy almost punched through the very foundation of the universe. Being young and foolish. I poked one of these high-density regions with additional energy, adding gravity and mana to the electromagnetism, strong, weak atomic forces, and reality already present.

The universe rippled, and suddenly I could sense three new forces. One reaching…


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So, I have had a hell of a time writing anything for the last three days. I have been fighting depression, a lack of motivation, and a lack of the spark that makes me feel my writing. Several times I sat at my computer and started to write. I would get a sentence or a fragment out, delete it, write a completely different starting sentence, delete it, then start over. I also tried editing several stories or articles I have in various states of completion and couldn’t find anything to add, change, or edit that wasn’t worse than what I…

Tom Chizek

Software Engineer by day, Novelist by night

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